She hanged herself to feel death
Trial by noose
Amrita Valli may not have wanted her death to be called a suicide. To her, it probably meant a trek to an unseen world that remains man’s biggest mystery.
The 25-year-old hanged herself to death at her M G Palya house on Friday evening. Her suicide note read: “Hanging, my desire. Just want to experience. No one is responsible for my death.”
To the world outside, she was happily married to Manikantan, a computer engineer, since March 2008. On Friday, too, just hours before her death, she had spoken to her husband. He called her up twice, and the second time, she did not respond. Back home, he found the door locked from inside and after neighbours broke it open, they found her hanging from the roof of the second floor. Though crestfallen from Valli’s death, her parents and her sister, from Chidambaram in Tamil Nadu, have no complaints against Manikantan. To them, Manikantan and Valli were a happy couple, and there were no particular incidents of clashes or major differences between them.
Her suicide note, too, did not betray any trace of discontentment. All she said was she wanted to feel how hanging snuffs out life. “I have heard and read a lot about people ending their lives by hanging. I love my family and parents. Hanging is my desire and nobody is responsible for my death,” she explained in Tamil and English in the note.
Police and experts, however, take the suicide and its apparent cause with a pinch of salt. Valli has not said anything about her husband in the note. Also, her leaving a note shows she knew she might die in the course of action.
Dr B N Gangadhar, medical superintendent, Nimhans, said he had never heard of any one trying to experience suicide thus. “Why would anyone want to write a note and then die? Rather, the person would want to experience it and then maybe write about it,” he says.