Uncertainty is the only certainty: Irrfan Khan

Uncertainty is the only certainty: Irrfan Khan

Irrfan Khan, file photo

Veteran actor Irfaan Khan, who is battling 'high-grade neuroendocrine cancer, has penned an emotional note on how he is coping, in which he says - 'uncertainty is the only certainty’.

The 51-year-old actor in the emotional note said: "I had been in a different game, I was travelling on a speedy train ride, had dreams, plans, aspirations, goals, was fully engaged in them. And suddenly someone taps on my shoulder and I turn to see. It’s the TC: “Your destination is about to come. Please get down.” I am confused: “No, no. My destination hasn’t come.” “No, this is it. This is how it is sometimes.”

On his present state, Irrfan said: "Time will tell if it stays, but that is how I feel as of now."

"Throughout my journey, people have been wishing me well, praying for me, from all over the world. People I know, people I don’t even know. They were praying from different places, different time zones, and I feel all their prayers become ONE. One big force, like a force of current, which got inside me through the end of my spine and has germinated through the crown of my head," the actor stated.

"As I was entering the hospital, drained, exhausted, listless, I hardly realised my hospital was on the opposite side of Lord’s, the stadium. The Mecca of my childhood dream. Amidst the pain, I saw a poster of a smiling Vivian Richards. Nothing happened, as if that world didn’t ever belong to me," he said penned from the United Kingdom. 

"This hospital also had a coma ward right above me. Once, while standing on the balcony of my hospital room, the peculiarity jolted me. Between the game of life and the game of death, there is just a road. On one side, a hospital, on the other, a stadium. As if one isn’t part of anything which might claim certainty – neither hospital nor the stadium. That hit me hard," he added.