Spiritual growth

Every aspect of growth that you know always amounts to accumulation. My body is growing- accumulation; my business is growing- accumulation; my family is growing- accumulation. So when you say spiritual growth, it's a big deception because this is not about accumulation. This is about dissolution-Growing means dissolving; not acquiring. It's because of this contradiction spirituality seems to be so difficult. Earning money in the world is more difficult or just throwing it off on the street and going is more difficult?

Throwing doesn't take effort. Throwing takes certain madness, but accumulating money takes enormous effort. This is not about throwing things away. Throwing yourself away takes much more madness. This madness looks dangerous because the whole orientation since the very beginning of mankind has always been accumulation, accumulation, accumulation. Everything you see - whether its wealth, money, knowledge, people or anything- accumulate, that's the only way you know how to enhance yourself. Why you're accumulating is because the way you are right now is not sufficient. You need to add something to yourself to feel a little better.

So, somebody thinks accumulating money is crude, but accumulating artwork is better. Somebody thinks accumulating anything is crude, accumulating people is better. Somebody thinks accumulating self-knowledge is best. See, whether you gather stones or gods, it makes no difference. It is fundamentally coming from a sense of insufficiency. The way you are is not enough. Something has to be added to this to make you feel good enough. 

Why spirituality seems to be mind-boggling is  because this growth will not happen unless you dissolve what you have accumulated- to throw away everything that you've accumulated. Throwing away does not mean you have to take the things from house and throw them on the street. It is just that you don't accumulate within yourself. Things that are in the house it's convenient, comfortable, but the problem is you're carrying it in your head all the time; that's burdensome, that's killing. If money's in the pocket it makes life comfortable, but you carry it in your head- it's a whole perversion. It's taking life in a million different ways. So, throwing it away is not from where they are; throwing it away is from you. That is, you don't make it a part of yourself. You use it, you enjoy it, you experience it, but you don't try to make it a part of yourself- that's all.